Getting ready for another year of NaPoWriMo….

bluewater girl in a whitewater world

you will find me in the bluewater where the tide rises and pounds against the rocks
I will be wet soaked to the skin
and drowning
wondering why the crowning
always happens to my head
feeling bruised and battered
and wondering if I really matter
in this world of angry water
jellyfish tentacles stinging
my ears ringing
with the sound
of my lungs bringing
up salty water
coughing and sputtering
uttering profanity
for no reason
except to hear my voice
say the words
and to imagine them searing flesh hardened by the sea
and breaking bones of hatred and indignity.
you will find me in the bluewater where the tide rises and
pounds against the rocks
and from that place
I will rise
I will rise
I will rise above the tide
bluewater girl
found whole and wholely
lostbutfound
foundbutlost.